Hey There, 
 I am trying to stay as up to date as I can. Wow it is tough! With school, editing, portrait sessions and my yearning for my social life back! Try balancing all that at once. Well I want to start off by saying I am not as stressed  as the last post. I have calmed down and I am finding myself. Which besides this is school and I am already learning I am really learning more and more about myself in this ten month process. I have reacted my breaking point, found my inner emotions, looking for that strength I know I have and just finding myself.
 Do you really know yourself or do you think you know yourself? I have had many long nights I would stay up late and think. That is all I would do is think. Think about myself and what I want, who I want to be, where I see myself being in the future and how I am going to get there. Many other things but those are the main things. I have noticed a lot about myself through these months. Is that I think way too much! and I never really noticed how much I worry about sometimes silly things. I need to work on  living in the moment and not thinking so much about the future. But I guess that the future is closer then I thought. Because after school I am done with school which means I have to start this business and make it expand. As of June 24 when I graduate I will be the proud owner of JP Photography! It is exciting yet overwhelming at time to think about me Justine Pelletier and 18 year old business owner. I hope that people will take me serious and  know I have a lot of experience, knowledge behind this ever changing field of Photography. I love what I do and I want people to not just think about my age but also see my work. I know that people who are reading this could say I am just 18 and I don't have to worry so much and I have time to figure this out but to me I can't stop thinking/worrying because when things start to end my mind begins to race. I have always been this way even before Hallmark. I mean even going into middle school from elementary school was a big thing. But this is bigger then that because  I am so committed to this school and this basically tells my future. I want to pass and I dedicated everything to come here and I don't get a second chance. Which puts a lot more stress on me. 
 I know what I want and I know I will get there soon! It may not be easy but I will work as hard as I can to get to the point I want to be. And I really am working on myself for me and so others wont be affected by my stress and worrying anymore(:


Till next time~JP Photography

Frustration

Hey There, Well it seems I messed up the challenge but I am working on it. I have been busy with school. SO BUSY! There is a lot going on like classes, my final and social life, well I can't really add that because I don't have a social life anymore. When I started going to this school and people said the program went by fast I didn't believe them...well I should have listened to them. Because this program was a lot more then what I set out for. I mean I know I will do all i can to pass and not give up but damn this is exhausting! Losing sleep, eating whenever possible and at time I have to think "Am I still breathing?" I am trying to find the inner strength to really give me that push and boost I need to keep going but it is drifting away. But I remember that I am going here for my future and start my business. I love what I do and I always know that whatever happened's in life I will have my business/photography. I know this is short and sweet but I have to go sleep. Maybe tonight I will be well rested instead of waking up thinking and worrying! 

until next time~fierce and love~JP Photography

Time

Hey There,
 Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I have been so busy with School, Shooting and Family and Friend Things. Things have been crazy for me since I am almost done with school and I have been very stressed with that and other things. I didn't notice until now how expensive this business really is! Wow it is overwhelming! I have been staying at the school later and trying to keep busy. But for the most part I am doing well. I have 19 more days until this final is due and everyday i am going to post something! Weather it is just a paragraph or a couple sentences but this is my challenge for rest of the days I have left! I had to come up with a 27 image portfolio by June 1 2011 and I have 8 more I need done. We have a criteria i have to follow and it seemed like a lot but as I started going  I figured this wasn't as hard as I thought. I went to an instructor this morning to show him my test prints and I made sure I asked him to be brutally honest about my work and I thought I would leave his office crying but I got a better response. He said I needed some minor adjustments and over all he liked the images I had and he would have passed me(: I was happy to hear this because I guess I am a little hard on myself about my work because I didn't think it was that great, maybe because I stare at it way too long everyday. But it was nice to hear that. 


 I have been in classes all day and then I am going home to my Mom's tonight. I have shoots tomorrow and Sunday. So I will be editing for the rest of the week and if everything goes as planned I will be getting four more shots for my portfolio done! YAY! so then I will need four more then done. With just enough time if  I need to reshoot something. I hope that wont happen, I will make it so I wont have too. 

 Other then school I am ok. Sort of stressed. When things start to end like school or anything I have been working on for a long time I start to worry and think a lot about what will happen in the future, what I will be doing, MONEY is a big thing, and my mind just wont stop going on and on. I know I don't have to really think so in depth on these subjects but I do. I try not to but it is difficult when my future is important and I know what I want to do and I can picture what I want it to be doing, but getting there is my problem. I didn't really start noticing this until I talk to a couple different people about it. They made me realize it, what I was doing and how I tend to act different.  Which I hate that I don't want it to mess with my everyday life and affect other people. Because it is different talking about but taking it out on other people. I guess I am more committed to this then I thought meaning school and my business. 


 I have a class next so I should be going! Thank you for reading! Let me know what you think!


xoxo~fierce and love~until next time